Many times I see clients who have had traumatic childhoods. Their stories are heartbreaking. They rarely feel sorry for themselves. They have persevered through so many hardships, for such a long time, that what they feel is dogged determination. They have handled their troubles alone, starting at such a young age, that it doesn’t occur to them to ask for help.
They may think that spiritual healing is for the enlightened or highly evolved soul. They may think they are not pure enough, because they carry shame. Shame is like those blackout spots on police news videos, where you can’t see the person’s eyes because the screen shimmers like a bright light shined on a mirror. Shame stops you from processing your trauma. Shame is like crazy glue in your neural synapses. Where you carry shame, you lose interest in learning. Makes sense, if every time you try something, you bump into a wall of shame.
What I actually find in Akashic readings for people who have been traumatized, is that many, if not most of these folks are old souls.
Why would an old soul incarnate with so many challenges? It seems like an old soul would choose a cushy life: loving parents, easy money, adoring spouse, fulfilling career….and of course, physical beauty & fantastic health.
But what I see repeatedly is old souls who’ve had serious trauma in their lives: emotional, physical or sexual abuse, neglect, illness, loss…. I have personally learned these lessons from my own life experiences; I speak of trauma and karma with authority and compassion.
Many old souls have matured to the point of getting serious about becoming wise and compassionate. Suffering leads you to fully identify with the best and the worst of the human experience. Every human being has the capacity to both suffer and perpetrate horror. Learning such deep and powerful lessons requires you to know that you are both the Victim and the Perpetrator. You find the Self at the center of an impersonal paradox. Suffering ends when you accept this about yourself, and about life as a human being.
Through finally accepting the fullness of your humanity, you learn to experience your divinity in an unconditional way. You learn to fully love yourself, respect yourself, believe in yourself, and trust yourself – unconditionally, the way Spirit does! You can love other people in without judgment when you love yourself without judgment.
That is why trauma is bodhi – a Buddhist term for an instrument of our awakening. Your deepest wounds contain seeds of Light. When my clients experience the truth of this in a reading, Light courses through them. Heaviness departs; years fall away as they sense new possibilities opening for them. It is a great happiness to see a client looking ten years younger at the end of their reading!
A spiritual perspective is your greatest ally, no matter where you are in your recovery, and no matter what pain you’ve carried. Let the Light in.
